Tonight’s wod sucked. I couldn’t breathe. I finished feeling dizzy and nauseous. Ick. Before it even ended I was beating myself up for not being stronger and faster and fitter and… perfecter!
I have struggled for what feels like a lifetime with a desire to be perfect. I know, I know, that’s completely irrational. I’m just being honest here. My fundamental evangelical heritage taught me, “Be ye perfect as Christ is perfect.” Thank God – literally, I now am beginning to understand that the only perfection there ever was , is or will be is Christ himself. and the ONLY way God will ever see me as perfect is through the lense of His Grace.
What does that have to do with tonight’s wod? Hang with me.
As we caught our breath and our equilibrium, Chris could sense our need to debrief. – or maybe he just refused to let me leave looking that bad! Either way, we had a chance to talk. He told us to go home and look in the mirror – and to look ourselves in the eyes.
Busted! I don’t spend much time looking myself in the eyes. I do spend time in front of the mirror. Usually I’m focused on flaws. I see new wrinkles. I see old stretch marks. I see imperfection. I focus on what is wrong. I look for, and find flaw after flaw. Why? It is my choice, after all. Why not look myself in the eyes – with eyes of grace – and like what I see?
I do have a great smile. 🙂
“My grace is sufficent for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
Peace, Love, and Grace,